I have discovered the words I hate the most of all during the last month. They are the words I hear at least once a week from Kaiya. The words are, "Mom, I cried again today. I cried because I miss you." Since school started and we both began our adjustments, I have arrived to pick Kaiya up and am received with either the director telling me she cried for me, or Kaiya telling me she cried for me.
These words hurt me deeply because I have never wanted Kaiya to hurt for me. That is one of the reasons for 5 years I went with out, or did without because I didn't want her to not have a mom there loving her. And for 5 years we were best buddies!! This adjustment has been more difficult on her than I had ever imagined! I smile thru it all and tell her I missed her too. But, we really have no other choice.
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I really enjoyed reading your recent posts Janan, not sure if Connie has caught you up I assume not with Girish and I. I am filing for divorce. Since last November things went SOUTH as I decided I would not tolerate things anymore. Change is hard and some people do not have the capacity to do it. I have to move forward with my 4 boys. I have been tempted to call you as Connie gave me your number once, but i know just how DRAINED a person can feel going through these things and did not want to bother you. However I feel like you might have some advice to offer me. Would you mind if i called you? If you need someone who could probably relate with alot of what you are or have dealt with i am here for you too. My cell is 949 282-8341. One day at a time....
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