Importance of Personal Freedom and Agency

During the past several months, there has been a decent amount of stress in our life! At the oneset of it all, I had within my mind how I thought it would all work out. And, within my mind, I was certain by August, dust would have settled, and things would begin to become a routine, and feel normal. It is now September, and what I had in my mind, and what has occurred are no where near the same thing!

This drastic difference in what my "ideal" (I guess that would be the correct word) and what obviously the Lord has lined up for me are totally different! The past 3 months have been particularly stressful. I have noticed something so very much interesting. Everytime, I attempt to have my way with what I want, I run into road blocks, things get more tedious,and more messy. However, when I have set back, and handed my problems over to the Lord, while it may not have happened in my time frame, things seem to work out! I am not the type to sit back and have zero control over my life. With circumstance as they are currently, I have nearly zero control of anything happening in my life! There are things I would like to do, choices I wish I could make, but because of situations, I seem to be stuck.

With this feeling of stuck, I have grown increasingly stressed, and as friends have pointed out, I am not myself when I have no control. Tonight, I realized it isnt' that I have NO CONTROL, I can give up control to correct principles quite easily. I am stressed and frazzled because currently I have no free agency or FREEDOM! That statement may sound crazy, I mean we live in the United States, and free agency was the first blessing given to man by the creator. What I mean is because of choices, and because of correct principles, I am unable to make certain choices that I would like to make.